Thanks 2008...

Today is 31st dec, last day for year 2008. Like any other even i have planned many ways to give a grand adieu to 2008. But, for the last 2days,i am not feeling well , even today i was lying on bed through out the day, not in a mood to celebrate it. But If i dont initiate for party, Me and my male roommate have to stare at each other. He wont join in any celebration, when i am lying on bed in sick mood.

Now i am in turmoil state whether to party tonight or not, coz to be candid this year was not good for me, means i tried many things both in my career and my personal life but no success at all in any one of them.
if i turn back in my life and see there was nothing memorable, that i can carry forward to next 2009. Its empty, like a glass with a leak and what ever i pour in has drained out as on then itself.
Through out this year, i was doing only 2 things, go to office come back late nights and sit back before books and try my best to creep into one of the B-schools. only these two, Nothing else.
ofcourse, on the last day, i am right there where i have started.

hey, there is one thing which i would like to talk about,when i am writing this blog, I am very different from what i was on 31st dec 07. sheer difference, i can experience that difference in me. The difference is in confident levels, i am now so confident than ever before.

Before this i used to afraid of life, some silly thoughts (dont ask me about these, i dont want to divulge them), always planning for future and getting frustrated if they didnt turn out. I used to be very timid, both in office and personal life too.


But now, I am taking every thing in a lighter manner, I couldn't make it to premier B-schools for which i was getting ready for through out the year. I didnt feel sad for it. Rather, I became so stronger and harder. I am confident enough to challenge life. I believe, I can lead a better and succesful life in future.
I have stopped planning for my future and moved into actions.
I have reached my old friends and relative who had almost forgotten me. Really, It brings a new energy if you meet the people who are close to you.

I dont know when and at what time, i got this much confident but this happened in 2008. I might not tasted any success in this year, but it had changed me from the bottom.
Thanks 2008...now i got to go n ready for the party.